It’s been a while ever since I’ve written here and definitely, I love being back to this hobby of mine that I have cultivated since I was a college student. Blogging (I mean, writing on an online journal, not so much with that of documenting one’s preoccupations on video) has been my one and only sport (if you could consider it as such) for years and years of my undergraduate life until work caught up on me as I then began to metamorphose into such a smug curmudgeon whose mental health struggles created a perennial vacuum in me, But after my on and off attempts at reviving this, at last I have written yet another entry on this blog that has become irregularly populated in a sense.
So, what about this post? Actually I don’t really know, with all honesty. It’s merely this kind of hubris perhaps about writing that has kept haunting me for days since I’ve constantly indicated in my planner that I HAVE TO BLOG ONCE AND FOR ALL. I’ve always been putting this off, not for anything else but because I merely think there are more important things to keep myself busy with. As I’ve resigned from job and applied for a retainer/part-time position in that same workplace, I did figure out that I now have more time to allocate for what I ought to do; so I am currently taking advantage of that fact.
Maybe what I should highlight here momentarily is on how I’ve been healing from my recent major mental health debacle that happened last month, a circumstance instrumental for my resignation, somehow. I always felt like I’d be waking up from a very deep sleep almost everyday. There were memories that I’d have forgotten, perhaps due to my brain having bogged down entirely during those two days leadng up to my breakdown, where I had no sleep for two days due to work. Fast forward to today, I have observed that i am relatively more relaxed and I have gone back to analog journaling again (which I could not do quite often still but I do look forward to the day when I’d be able to do so regularly). I am also trying to set up my new creatives business and I am currently designing some sticker and postcard designs for both my business and as a last task for my work.
So far, I believe I am thriving but with finances as my only difficulty. Yet, I still wake up with gratitude that I am stlll alive despite everything that makes me anxious every now and then. As this is the week before Holy Week (as of this writing), I am reminded of how much God has been keeping my company amidst every experience I have, whether good or bad.
So, as always, in typical Benedictine fashion: that in all things, God may be glorified.